Do I really have to share?

We preach at our kids to share, share, share...

And as mom's I think sharing with our children is something we just naturally do. From before they are born we have let them borrow our bodies, then our breasts, we have let them steal our sleep and our sanity.

We don't think twice about giving up the last cookie for them...even though we really want it. We make sure they are fed first, get their first choice of movie, get to pick the game -- it really is all about them. And within boundaries, this is probably the way it should be.

However, sometimes I just long to be selfish. Is that bad?

I had one of those selfish bouts not long ago...

We are huge American Idol fans -- the one show that the whole family can sit down and enjoy together. We also never watch anything "live" anymore (how did we survive without DVR's). So at 7:30pm everyone else is ready to start the show, but of course I still have about 5 things to do before I can join them...switch the laundry, stick money in the backpack for a field trip, finally change out of my work clothes, etc. "Go ahead and start without me."

When I finally get downstairs to join them, I have brought a can of soda with me to enjoy. I also go and pull a blanket out of the closet because I'm cold.

I sit down...and immediately two kids want to drink my pop. Next they both want to have my blanket on them which I have wrapped snugly around myself. I let them sip my soda, and I undo the blanket so it covers both of them and one of my thighs. Then they want more of my pop, and they begin to fight over my lap -- one wants their legs on my lap, the other want to sit on me -- I feel like a worn out jungle gym. And all I really want is some quiet so I can hear Kris sing!

In my heart -- I know how lucky I am. I am thankful to have kids who want to be cuddled and loved, and I know some day I will miss moments like these.

But this day...well, I just wanted to sit down at the beginning of the show, in the warmth of my blanket, and enjoy my soda without someone else's saliva all over it. Is that too much to ask?